Welcome To The Official Blog Of Porn Star Monica Mayhem

As much as I have to do right now, I thought I should get to writing my blog, since it’s been a couple of weeks. I needed a time out of my brain, and this is my mental release.

I’m completely overwhelmed, trying to take care of business, shoot here and there, preparing to go away for 5 weeks, having to maintain my looks, and learn 13 songs (which I had no say in FYI), and I gotta say, this could just be one of the toughest projects I’ve ever taken on in my life!

I can’t eat, I can’t sleep, and I don’t want to get hooked on xanax or sleeping pills to get me through. So what else can I do to de-stress? I’ve tried everything, passion flower, sleep herbs, meditation, yoga, cardio. Nothing works! I got no-one to help me with my day to day work, and no-one to come home too other than my furry little friend ‘Smokey‘. It’s really quite sad. Staying up till 2am every night trying to get work finished. Then not being able to sleep. But if I don’t do it, I’ll always question myself and kick my own ass for giving up. So failure is not an option at this point!

In case you didn’t know, as of 23rd April – 31st May, I’ll be on tour, filming a reality show,  with an all girl porn star band, consisting of: Layla LaBelle – Guitar, Alicia Andrews – Drums (brand new to drumming), Tuesday Cross – Bass, and Bree Olson as the ‘Manager’. We will also be shooting an x-rated version through Adam and Eve. We won’t meet until 23rd Apr, live together in a house for one week in Vegas to rehearse, then we go on tour – Vegas, Denver, Santa Fe, Albuquerque, Phoenix, Reno, Sacramento, San Francisco, and LA. And all the while, the cameras will be rolling 24/7, no doubt this show will be highly entertaining to watch! The show is called ‘Tight’. I’ll provide more details as I get them.

I really had no time to recover from coming back from Australia, 2 days later I flew to Plainfield, CT to feature dance at Stars. Which was great, rides for 5 was a big hit with that club!

Then I flew home, unpacked, re-packed, and drove to San Diego (2.5hrs from LA), to do 3, 45min live webcam shows for Naughty America. Still jet-lagged, by 9pm, I drove home and didn’t get back till midnight due to border patrol stopping everyone along the way! Then I had to read over the final contract for the reality show, sign, scan and send. That day was crazy!

The next day I shot my movie for Penthouse, tentatively titled ‘Bad Girl Club Sluts’, which involved a music/rehearsal video with a band I put together in a matter of minutes a week before! (Thanks Guys!). They really nailed my song ‘Fallen’, (although we had to play to a track, but I could hear them behind me) and the video is going to come out great I’m sure! I shot a hot g/g scene with Breanne Benson, and we were out of there by 1 or 2am I believe! I don’t mind, I love shooting with a big crew, and doing creative movies like that. And of course, feeling so glamorous as the star, being pampered in the make up room!

Since then, I’ve been trying so hard to catch up with everything that I need to do. And in between, which is actually part of my job, staying fit, hiking was the highlight of my weekend, it was a good 2hrs, around Griffith Park, with my best friend, catching up. Such a nice day. Will be doing a lot more of that from now on. I always feel so good getting out in nature and getting a good work out at the same time.

So now, it’s back to work for me. Speaking of working out, I need to call this kick-boxing trainer. That will surely help take my mind off things!

Oh and BTW, I released my first single online through Itunes and every other major digital music outlet. It’s called ‘Escape’ by Monica Mayhem (not Sweet Avenge anymore). Very happy to have done that!

Back to work for me….

Mon xoxox

Wow, where do I begin?? I had the time of my life at Brisbane Sexpo! I headlined this year, and had an amazing turn out. Although people were very scared to come up, they would stand back and stare at me on the stage, taking photos from afar, until they’d had a few beers and got the courage to say hi! Hearts were racing, hands trembling, and people forgetting to grab their signed photos before running off! Awwww, but that was so sweet, everyone was really nice and respectful (aside from a couple of guys, obviously high on GHB, that’s the only time we had to call security over). Some really hot girls, lots of titties out, and orgy style photos on the bed!

Seth Enslow (who just broke the world record for longest jump on a Harley), and the Crusty Demons were there. Fucking amazing show! I got to go up on the truck while they jumped over my head. I’m scared of heights and was shaking, holding onto the gorgeous Sammy Lee (who did such a great job of hosting), but when I looked up at the boys jumping over me, I nearly came in my pants! Such a rush. I don’t know how they do it, back flips and all! The boys were so much fun to hang out with. We had an after party in my suite one night, and security came to shut it down, we were pretty rowdy, I don’t blame them!

Nikki Benz was also there signing, we had a great time hanging out, went out to Cloudland, a beautiful nightclub in Brisbane. We took Seth along with us and hung out with some rugby players – who were not even allowed to be seen with pornstars! We made the news and everything, just because they came to Sexpo to say hi. Can you believe how conservative it is in Australia?

Queensland is now so conservative that the Australian Sex Party has asked me to run as a candidate in the next election to help the fight against censorship in Australia! So now I’m pre-selected, but it has to go before the Eros committee before they select me to run. This should be interesting! And no, I’m not pulling a Mary Carey or Jodie Moore, this is way more serious, and I’m sick of state government bullshit laws over here. Why can’t we, as adults, choose what we can and can’t watch? They’re trying to ban access to internet porn in Queensland! And selling hardcore DVD’s is actually illegal (although stores do it anyway), I mean, how ridiculous is that??? My book has even been banned from some bookstores for being ‘too risqué’. But it is also a best seller!!! So happy!

Myself and a few boys, went out to some after parties on the last night and got mobbed by people everywhere, I couldn’t talk anymore by the end of the night, I was so exhausted. It was actually getting a little dangerous too, and I could feel some fights coming on, so we headed back to the hotel to end the night.

The next morning I had to get up super early to shoot for Picture Premium with Kiki (a new Aussie porn starlet) and one of my favorite Aussie photographers, Tania Stevenson who shot me for Scarlett Blue and Picture mag last year. It was the quickest shoot in history, with my phone ringing off the hook in between, and then I had to rush to the airport to catch a flight to Sydney.

So to wrap it up, had some great signings, saw some great performances, had some great sex, ate some great food, and drank quite a lot, as you do in true Aussie style!

I’ll be taking Nikki to see some Koalas, kangaroos, emu’s etc tomorrow. Then we’re going to hit the town in Sydney. Not sure where yet. It is super hot here today, hopefully the weather stays this way all week so I can hit the beautiful beaches of Sydney and relax for a few days! Ending the weekend celebrating my birthday with friends and family.

Until next time…