TMI!
Tuesday, March 30th, 2010As much as I have to do right now, I thought I should get to writing my blog, since it’s been a couple of weeks. I needed a time out of my brain, and this is my mental release.
I’m completely overwhelmed, trying to take care of business, shoot here and there, preparing to go away for 5 weeks, having to maintain my looks, and learn 13 songs (which I had no say in FYI), and I gotta say, this could just be one of the toughest projects I’ve ever taken on in my life!
I can’t eat, I can’t sleep, and I don’t want to get hooked on xanax or sleeping pills to get me through. So what else can I do to de-stress? I’ve tried everything, passion flower, sleep herbs, meditation, yoga, cardio. Nothing works! I got no-one to help me with my day to day work, and no-one to come home too other than my furry little friend ‘Smokey‘. It’s really quite sad. Staying up till 2am every night trying to get work finished. Then not being able to sleep. But if I don’t do it, I’ll always question myself and kick my own ass for giving up. So failure is not an option at this point!
In case you didn’t know, as of 23rd April – 31st May, I’ll be on tour, filming a reality show, with an all girl porn star band, consisting of: Layla LaBelle – Guitar, Alicia Andrews – Drums (brand new to drumming), Tuesday Cross – Bass, and Bree Olson as the ‘Manager’. We will also be shooting an x-rated version through Adam and Eve. We won’t meet until 23rd Apr, live together in a house for one week in Vegas to rehearse, then we go on tour – Vegas, Denver, Santa Fe, Albuquerque, Phoenix, Reno, Sacramento, San Francisco, and LA. And all the while, the cameras will be rolling 24/7, no doubt this show will be highly entertaining to watch! The show is called ‘Tight’. I’ll provide more details as I get them.
I really had no time to recover from coming back from Australia, 2 days later I flew to Plainfield, CT to feature dance at Stars. Which was great, rides for 5 was a big hit with that club!
Then I flew home, unpacked, re-packed, and drove to San Diego (2.5hrs from LA), to do 3, 45min live webcam shows for Naughty America. Still jet-lagged, by 9pm, I drove home and didn’t get back till midnight due to border patrol stopping everyone along the way! Then I had to read over the final contract for the reality show, sign, scan and send. That day was crazy!
The next day I shot my movie for Penthouse, tentatively titled ‘Bad Girl Club Sluts’, which involved a music/rehearsal video with a band I put together in a matter of minutes a week before! (Thanks Guys!). They really nailed my song ‘Fallen’, (although we had to play to a track, but I could hear them behind me) and the video is going to come out great I’m sure! I shot a hot g/g scene with Breanne Benson, and we were out of there by 1 or 2am I believe! I don’t mind, I love shooting with a big crew, and doing creative movies like that. And of course, feeling so glamorous as the star, being pampered in the make up room!
Since then, I’ve been trying so hard to catch up with everything that I need to do. And in between, which is actually part of my job, staying fit, hiking was the highlight of my weekend, it was a good 2hrs, around Griffith Park, with my best friend, catching up. Such a nice day. Will be doing a lot more of that from now on. I always feel so good getting out in nature and getting a good work out at the same time.
So now, it’s back to work for me. Speaking of working out, I need to call this kick-boxing trainer. That will surely help take my mind off things!
Oh and BTW, I released my first single online through Itunes and every other major digital music outlet. It’s called ‘Escape’ by Monica Mayhem (not Sweet Avenge anymore). Very happy to have done that!
Back to work for me….
Mon xoxox
