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I am craving just one really good nights sleep! If I could just fall asleep easily and sleep more than 4hrs straight, I would be so happy! I refuse to take sleeping pills. With all the shit that I had put my body through over the years – back in the days of partying my ass off, I’m too scared to take anything that isnt herbal. And no, weed does not help me sleep! lol. But is great every now and then to take my mind off things.

Juneau Wisconsin was definately an experience. The club itself was beautiful, you didnt feel like you were in the middle of nowhere when you walk into that club. The girls were hot, and most of them were actually friendly towards me. Thats all i’m going to say.

I was shocked to hear about Michael Jacksons death. Very sad, he was such a genius, there will never be anyone like him. I dont believe he was a pedophile, just a man who never had a real childhood, and wanted to re-live that, living in a fantasy world.

Moving on,  I just came back from shooting a very interesting reality type show – which is also going to be a porn flick, but hopefully they’ll sell the reality part to MTV or something. I can’t talk about it though, sorry! We’ll just have to wait and see what happens with it.

Aside from that, i’m just busy trying to get things back in order in my office and around the house. Always so much work to catch up on when you get back in town. And being tired all the time, doesn’t help achieve much! But I’m pushing myself anyway. I wont let this insomnia hold me back!

stay tuned…

I am very happy to have received such great feedback from everyone on the condom issue in my last blog. Some people say it ruins the fantasy when they’re watching porn, but for the most part, people agree that our health should be first priority, and alot of fans dont care whether there’s a condom in the scene or not – as long as they dont see the guy putting it on.

Well I’m currently in Juneau – Wisconsin not Alaska. And there’s absolutely nothing around really. I’m in an apartment rather than a hotel – cause there are none! I just finished cleaning the hell of out it – cause i’m a clean freak, bought some flowers, candles and incense to feel more at home. And alot of healthy food so I can cook every day. That way I know i’m going to be eating great meals!

I went for a long walk, worked out. And currently doing laundry, checking emails, talking to friends on skype and aol. Thank god for internet! And TV! I think I would go crazy otherwise. And I guess I can forget about getting any sleep with all the trucks driving by starting at 5am! I suffer from insomnia in general, something i’m trying to cure with acupuncture and chinese herbs. But a bit hard when on the road so much.

I try to look at the brightside of everything. I’m just happy to be working. I have 2 days off before I start featuring at this club, Silk, here in Juneau – I really hope people will drive out here to see me! Its full nude, full alcohol. The only county in WI with those rules. But Summerfest (a huge rock music festival) starts on Thursday in Milwaukee – where I was last week, doh! So fingers crossed anyway.

Now on another issue, bitchy girls. Seriously, some really bad fucking attitudes from alot of strippers in every club I go to. And i’m so friendly to everyone, I say hello, and just get filthy looks. Some girls are really nice and supportive, dont get me wrong, but god damn do these other bitches realize how fucking rude they are.

Why spend your whole life being bitter and rude to everyone. Its such an ugly trait. And your never gonna get ahead in life with that kind of behaviour. I’ve worked my arse off to get to where i’m at, to get these feature gigs – to help bring customers into the clubs so the girls in turn, can make more money too. I guess some people will just be haters their whole life. And live in misery. I feel sorry for them. But if it wasn’t for my controlled anger management. I would get in some serious fights.

Ahhhhhhhhh yeah, got that off my chest! Thats all for now!

stay tuned….

luv mon xoxo