Welcome To The Official Blog Of Porn Star Monica Mayhem

I know I’ve been keeping you all in suspense for the longest time now! I’ve been so busy with my big move back home to Australia. That’s right, I have left LA, retired from porn, and am getting married very soon, all within the last 6 weeks! This came as a shock to me too. I never thought I would find someone and fall in love so quickly, especially whilst I was still in the biz, but I did, and I gave it all up for him. I know I’ve made the right decision, as I was alone and miserable for quite some time in LA. And had to isolate myself from a lot of friends, because I didn’t want to get back in the trap of the ‘Party scene’. And if you’ve seen what’s happened to Paris Hilton lately, you’ll know what I’m talking about.

So all in all, I do believe this is the best thing that I could have done with my life. And it’s not like I have completely bailed on the industry. I’ll still do appearances and signings, particularly when my book comes out in the US/Canada and France in October this year.

Actually, I wasn’t expecting to just up and leave so soon, I was going to come over here for a week or two, then go back to LA to take care of some business and move all my stuff, including my cat, which turns out, is going to take another 6 weeks! But instead, I decided to just stay, and delegate all the moving crap to someone else.

I’ve been super busy here, setting up house, catching up with friends and family, and getting up early to sort stuff out in LA. I’m now living in Bondi Beach, which is great, nice apartment, overlooking the ocean, just what I’ve always wanted.

I’m sure your wondering how this all happened. Well it’s simple, met a nice Aussie guy through mutual friends in LA, hit it off straight away – and no, I don’t mean sex! And within a very short time, he asked me to marry him! We were staying at the W Hotel at the time, and if you follow my tweets, you will have seen me talk about it. So we fell in love at the W, got engaged, and a week later, I’ve moved back to Australia! Just like that, same old spontaneous me, definitely not out of character, I find it very easy to just up and leave when I’m not happy with where I’m at. Sorry to all my friends and fans, but I gotta do what makes me happy for a change.

Whats next you may ask, well, there are so many things I could do, I’m a smart cookie and have always managed to have high paying jobs, from the age of 14 – so I guess street smarts can overrule book smarts! But one thing is for certain, I will NEVER go back to financial markets again. I may try and write a column for a womens’ magazine, something to do with sex obviously, or I may do something normal like property development/flipping houses. We shall see what happens, I never really plan anything out, just seem to fall into things that excite me at the time.

I have run into a few problems since getting engaged so quickly. Being labled a ‘gold digger’, people not trusting me, really hurtful things, particularly being stereotyped for being a ‘Former’ porn star. It’s all been very emotionally draining for me. Especially since I know I am a good person, and have a lot of love to give, and I am in love with this awesome man. I hate having to prove myself to people I don’t even know, and in fact, do not even care to know if they‘re going to act that way. But I guess that’s life, and if people want to waste their energy hating on me, then so be it. Just have to ignore it.

Anyway, my website is still running, and I will be interacting with fans on there. And my book ’Absolute Mayhem’ is currently for sale in Australia and soon overseas, and I have a few magazine layouts yet to come out.

I won’t tell you about my crazy party nights in LA before I left. Let’s just say, I went a little nuts, got very naked – including jumping in the pool at Drai’s niteclub in my bra and panties, and I have been hurting for the last few weeks! So now I’m completely sober and going to bed early every night. Next step, is to get back to the gym, god I miss working out! And cooking. We’ve been eating out everyday and I’m used to counting fat and calories in my meals, a bit hard when your not cooking it yourself. But OMG, I missed Aussie food soooooo much! Especially seafood, and please don’t say ‘throw another shrimp on the Barbie’, they are PRAWNS people PRAWNS! Lol.